Guaranteed

You. You know who you are. This is for you.

I have nobody to love. Lifetime of friend-zoning. All my life I've been lonely and slowly it starts to make me vomit from frustration. I can't help but cry on the inside when I keep hearing how other fuckers are fucking happy and shit.

Yes, I sound like pathetic emo shithead. Fuck you all. YES, I swear a lot. I drink, I smoke, I take snuff. I feel like the only thing I'm missing on the list are drugs. That will make it complete, right?

I don't know how to talk to my parents. They feel like if I blame them when in fact everything is only my fault.

I'm lazy. I don't see ANY future for me, and I'm simply afraid of socializing and working. I'm not a good student either.

I'm introverted and cynical. I suffer from neurosis, paranoia and OCD.

I don't feel any better because I said it. Every time I say I'm fine I feel like I'm lying to myself.

I hold grudges. I'm envious. It makes me hate everyone after some time. I have friends I don't deserve to have. They care for me abd it makes me feel like I drag them down the spiral with my long-term depression. The rest of them is fading away or moving on with life.

Seriously, no hard feelings.

Good luck and forget about me.